( she shouldn't do this, it's a thought ruminating in her mind as his new text comes in and the words leave her heart racing and skin hot with remembrance of their past love. that jovial eagerness, playfulness he showed her before came sweeping into her mind and it reminded her of the thoughts she once had when she held him in her arms before. this was a man who needed her, who she wanted to grow and mature for, to be strong and provide him all the love she wanted for herself. back then she had been so desperate and needy, yearning for a man to come save her and fill in the emptiness in her. when the tables were turned, she was more than willing to step in.
so what happened? why did she run from him and leave things in such a chaotic state of disarray? why couldn't she be brave enough to face him when takumi came sweeping in, taking full control of her life and the outcome of everything? because she had been protecting him—
she knew if she stayed with him, carrying that child, he'd be forced to give up his dream. so why couldn't she say that to him? explain her rational? she had acted in the same way takumi had really, stooping down to his level and rationalizing things as being best for him without consulting him.
so when he asked to meet her tonight, as simple as the request was, it was the least she could do for him really. so she began to text him, sitting up in her bed as the darkness of the room replaced the blue in her mind. )
jackson burger okay? it's been a while since I've had one and I'm really craving a bacon burger you know?
( it was yes, masked with a bit of light humor to counter the heaviness of their conversation. now all she had to do was wait and see if he would agree to it—
because if he did, she would rush to chofu as quickly as she could, fear, anxiety, and more driving her movements. )
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so what happened? why did she run from him and leave things in such a chaotic state of disarray? why couldn't she be brave enough to face him when takumi came sweeping in, taking full control of her life and the outcome of everything? because she had been protecting him—
she knew if she stayed with him, carrying that child, he'd be forced to give up his dream. so why couldn't she say that to him? explain her rational? she had acted in the same way takumi had really, stooping down to his level and rationalizing things as being best for him without consulting him.
so when he asked to meet her tonight, as simple as the request was, it was the least she could do for him really. so she began to text him, sitting up in her bed as the darkness of the room replaced the blue in her mind. )
jackson burger okay? it's been a while since I've had one and I'm really craving a bacon burger you know?
( it was yes, masked with a bit of light humor to counter the heaviness of their conversation. now all she had to do was wait and see if he would agree to it—
because if he did, she would rush to chofu as quickly as she could, fear, anxiety, and more driving her movements. )